I've been studying quite a bit these days for the GMAT. I'm spending my time on the verbal categories now. More specifically the Sentence Correction(SC). SC is a very depressing topic for me to go through because I find that the experience shows me more of what I don't know about identifying proper grammar. I've decided to take the GMAT on Nov 22 or 23 now.
Since I'll be going to Seattle at the end of that week for Thanksgiving to spend it with family and then spending the following week on the East Coast to visit schools, I really have to get it done by then. After getting my score on the screen, I'll be making a decision to apply this year to Business School or not. I think the decision to apply or not will have 680 as the approximate threshold.
I wasn't willing to face it for the last month or so and have had to fight an unconscious tendency towards laziness because of the decision I felt that I was going to have to face about applying this year or not. It wasn't until this last week that I was able to articulate what I was feeling and thinking. I also realized that this was the key reason that I wasn't blogging. I'm not phased by admissions committee members reading my Blog or what not, but I still couldn't put my finger on why my motivation for blogging had gone down so much. I wasn't burnt out over it, just unmotivated. Now I know.
I'm embarrassed to admit all this because I think that I should be putting in my best right now knowing that I have such a big decision ahead of me. But the truth is that I realized I was fearing failure more than I was motivated to kick butt.
I find myself praying these days for clarity of thought and courage to face the hardships of doing all this work. I realized that this was why I was having to go to the library to study as opposed to staying home so that I would minimize distractions in my life and to stay focused on studying.
In addition to the prayer, I have heard some sayings from Television, radio and from books that I've been reading that have really stuck with me through my reflective moments. Here are a few:
1) Success has no prejudice.
2) Leading is not just doing great things. A great leader helps other to do great things.
3) Step forward to make a difference
4) American midwest thinking is optimistic and western thinking has a can do spirit about it.
5) The best days are ahead and not behind.
6) We make a living by what we get and we make a life by what we give.
7) I feel alive when I go to sleep feeling the day was overwhelmingly productive.
Some other happenings
I was listening to NPR today and it there was a commercial for the MBA Tour going on in San Francisco.
The MBA Tour schedule is as follows:
Nov 9, Tuesday San Francisco
Nov 11, Thursday Boston
Nov 13, Saturday New York
Nov 17, Wednesday Wash DC
I don't plan on going as I either have all the information I need about the school or I'll be visiting the ones I'm interested in at the end of this month anyway... so it's not a big deal for me to miss it.
I wasn't surprised about Raj being fired this week from the Apprentice. I was very impressed by Andy this week to call on the other contractors for additional help. Personally, if I were in Raj's shoes, I would have hired a local real estate appraiser for $100 bucks and had them give me feedback on all the things to focus on to raise the value of the the quickest. Next week, I think Chris will be the next to go.
Other Apprentice tidbits
1) When on the show, the contestants are not allowed to use the internet except for short periods of time during the day.
2) They are not allowed to surf the net, read newspapers, magazines or watch television. This is intended to keep them from cheating or getting outside contact to influence the show.
3) They don't bring any money as the show pays for everything except for personal items which they are responsible for.
4) Before coming on the show, they competed with nearly 200 people for 2 weeks with directors and producers before it came down the shows intial group in a retreat like environment with all expenses paid.
I see that people have been getting requests for Interview from Harvard since Nov 5th. That's pretty quick.